Unique

This week I've spent a lot of time at home because I quite honestly don't have any where else to go. I've slept in until 1 in the afternoon and have just stayed in my pajamas the past couple of days, which is always fun. However, I'm starting to realize how much of a people person I am. I haven't really seen very many of my friends the past couple days and I'm really starting to miss them. I like to be with my friends and when I'm not around them I feel kind of weird. I almost feel like I'm all alone in this world, which is not a fun feeling to feel. It's interesting to see the different ways in which God made us. I feel all alone when I'm not surrounded by friends, where as some people don't like to be surrounded by people all the time. Realizing this really brings a lot more meaning when you read in the Bible that God made us all unique and we're all precious in His eyes. I love that He loves us and how He did make us all different it makes life a lot more interesting and it also makes Him that much more amazing.

Nick.

I started going to an event up at my church with one of my friends, who will be known as Phil. A couple of weeks later Phil invited his friend who we shall name Nick to the church event. Now I didn't know it at the time but Phil brought Nick thinking we would like each other. Turns out that Phil was right, Nick and I started to like each other, quite a bit actually. However, we only see each other once a week, so we decieded not to officially date until we got to know each other better. Those three hours we see each other I can tell that he's a really chivalrous guy and that's the thing I like most about him. Never before I have met anyone who is so respectful and to be honest before I met him I thought a chivalrous guy would get on my nerves. However, let me tell every female out there, you deserve someone who will open the door for you, throw out your trash, and pull out your chairs. Being chivalrous is more than the actions though, it's the attitude behind them, being chivalrous is being a gentleman and that is what every female in the world deserves.

Joe and I's History Part 2

A couple of months past and we didn't see each other at all. In that time I tried desperately to get over him and forget him and during that time I drew closer to God again. I thought I was completely over Joe, so when we met up again I believed that it would be fine and we could be friends, but I was really wrong. For awhile we were friends, but then I started to like him again, and for the third time he asked me out. Naturally, I said yes to him, an important detail here is that this happened on a Friday. I didn't see him on Saturday, but I did talk with one of our common friends, Will, who I have also mentioned before. Well, Will informed me that Joe had said, he would probably end up cheating on me. Being the naive woman I am I just couldn't believe Will was telling the truth, so on Sunday I called Joe up and asked him. That phone call lasted about 30 minutes and at the end of it Joe and I had broken-up and Will was right. We started dating on Friday, he cheated on me on Saturday, and we broke-up on Sunday. I now saw Joe as a jerk and someone I shouldn't be around, so I stopped talking to him, but after two weeks we were talking again and were best friends.

Joe and I's History Part 1

Joe, I've mentioned him once before, but I think it's time I let you know our history.
I met Joe in October 2006 and we hit it off great. In fact, by the end of that day we were dating, which yes looking back on it that was way too fast. He was a good boyfriend, always real sweet. However, a week after we met, he started saying 'I love you' which kinda freaked me out, but I have to say I thought I loved him too. We broke up in November that year, but got back together after a week. He always had a way with words to make me forget what I knew was right. I knew he wasn't a good guy for me, but I was so crazy about him I couldn't exactly think straight to be honest. The relationship didn't last long though, we broke-up in January 2007, actually he tricked me into dumping him. Then he has the nerve to start dating one of my friends three days later. I was not happy about that in the least, I loved this guy, he said he loved me, how could he be such a jerk to me? Even though, I wasn't at all happy with how he broke my heart like that, we stayed friends. However, our friendship also ended when I accidentally broke the necklace his deceased grandmother gave him. After that, he stopped talking to me and just would not forgive me.

Bumble Bee Part Three

Once again I found a new spot which as near one of my friends , we will call her Jane. All of a sudden I heard the buzzing of a bee and I immediately prayed, " I'm ready God." Then the bee came and buzzed back and forth right next to each ear for about a minute. The bee would come up real close to left ear and then go around to my right ear, then stop for a second and start again. Finally it got to be more than I could bare and I shot up and yelled, "I can't take it anymore!" Jane got up and ran over to me and held me tight. We stayed locked in an embrace for a minute or two when we let go and I walked far away. I walked over 5 minutes and decieded I was far enough away that no bee would find me but as soon as I sat down I heard another bee. The second I heard I freaked out and quickly walked away. I ended up making it all the way back to camp and no matter where I went a bee was always there, the time the bee landed on me seemed so long ago. This is so often how our relationship with God goes, He protects us once but then we just can't seem to find it in ourselves to trust Him again. Like it is said in Zephaniah 3:17, "The Lord your God is with you, He is might to save, He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing."

Bumble Bee Part Two

A few minutes after the ladybug came the bee returned, but I tried my best to remain calm. However, I was unable stay calm when the bee came close, I freaked out and ran away. As I was running to find a new spot I had this feeling that I was running out on God, and I didn't like that feeling. I found a spot a good ways away from my previous spot and sat down. Not long after I sat down a bee came which reminded me that no matter where we go there will always be danger or trouble, we can't run from it. The fact that we can't run away from our troubles and danger reminded me just how much we need God. We can run all we want from the many trials we will experience through out our life, but they will always catch up to us. The only thing that can help us with our struggles is God and again all we have to do is ask Him to help us and He will. Like it says in Psalm 34:17, "This poor man called, and the Lord heard him; He saved him out of all of his troubles." The Bible actually says the exact same thing in that same chapter, Psalm 34:6, and if the Bible says it twice in the same chapter then it really means it.

Bumble Bee Part One

I went to a retreat with my church last month and during it we were told to be silent and just sit somewhere and listen to God for one hour. I went off of a path and found a cliff where I could be by myself with no man made things in sight. I sat that for a couple of minutes waiting for something to happen, I didn't really know what to expect. All of a sudden there was this bee buzzing around and, I am very freaked out by bees. The bee buzzed around me in circles and I prayed to God to protect me and not let it sting me, and also for it to go away. Shortly after I prayed that prayer the bee left and I sat back down on the most comfortable rock I could find, which wasn't that comfortable. Then suddenly something yellow buzzed around me and it landed on my shoulder. I turned slightly and saw a yellow ladybug, I've never seen a yellow ladybug before and took it as God telling me, "I love you and will protect you." God wants to protect us, He wants us to run into His loving arms. All we have to do is trust Him, which at least for me, is the hardest part.