Backing Off

My friend Nick and I haven't really talked since he said that I can't trust him enough to date. Usually us not talking doesn't bother me, it just annoys me when other people talk about how close they are with him. However, the other day when a group of us went to play basketball it was the first time we had seen each other in months. I don't know why, but it really bothered me that we had lost contact. It bothered me to the point where we had to call a timeout because I was crying. He told me that he loved me and that he was a fool for not being there for me anymore, but I really didn't buy it.

I felt so awful because I didn't trust a word that Nick said. I've started thinking that Nick is merely being polite towards me and is perfectly contend with us being acquaintances. And if that's how he wants us to be, fine, I'm not going to pressure him into being friends with me, I wouldn't do that to anyone. It's his choice and I have to leave in God's hands because I really don't want to lose Nick as a friend. He means too much to me, he's helped me with so much and I just have to leave it to God because I know that if I don't, I'll completely mess everything up. I have to pray this prayer to God often so that I don't ever forget that it is not me who can handle the trouble of life, but Christ, my Savior. Psalm 40:11-13, "Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD; may your love and your truth always protect me. For troubles without number surround me; my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see. They are more than the hairs of my head, and my heart fails within me. Be pleased, O LORD, to save me; O LORD, come quickly to help me.